When I Couldn't Go Outside

By Demetrius Carrington


For two weeks last month I was sick, my head was pounding; I didn’t have any energy; I had cold sweats and I was experiencing bouts of nausea. Of course I was dealing with the Coronavirus.

Although I was terribly uncomfortable I never felt like my life was in serious jeopardy, I was certainly one of the lucky ones.

The worst part of it all was the fear that this could get a lot worst very quickly so I was in a constant battle with my mind but again; I was one of the lucky ones.

This kind of situation often forces you to take a look at your life; it’s amazing what happens when you just sit still. I focused on a few key areas in my life, first I thought about how fragile life really is and the trueness of the statement that “Health is Wealth.” My health was the simplest area to deal with because the answers are very clear cut but the next areas are complex and could be hurtful at times.

I asked myself was I happy, was I content with my finances, was I happy in my personal life. So as I laid there healing, it was abundantly clear that my physical body wasn’t the only thing that needed some healing.

Don’t get me wrong, I am blessed on so many levels. But I know I could be doing much more. I can improve my physical fitness; I can make even more money; I can help more people; I can improve my relationships with my family and friends; I can be more grateful; I can be more loving and kind; I can be the change I want to see.

So when I couldn’t go outside I went inside, inside of myself. I certainly don’t know the answers to all my questions but the common denominator is me so that’s where I’m going to start.

I’m going to be brave on my journey to greatness, perhaps I have unresolved trauma or I’m subconsciously fearful, whatever I find will be fixed because life is to short not to maximize every moment we have.

We all live these incredibly busy lives and if you’re not careful life can pass you by; we deserve to be happy with an abundance of love and laughter.

I urge you to do an honest self evaluation and get a plan to improve your life. Take some time out for yourself and just be still and reflect again, it’s amazing what happens when you just sit still.

Although this is a very trying time I’m grateful for it, I will be better because of this time.

So the next time you can’t go outside, go inside, inside of yourself it’s the greatest love of all.